I’ve been working through accepting myself as I am and accepting failure, learning a lot through readings such as “fail, fail again, fail better” by Pema Chödrön, “On The Heights of Despair” by Emil Cioran, and “The Tao of Pooh” by Benjamin Hoff.
It’s only been a week since I’ve began this journey so I haven’t had many experiences in challenging my attitude, but today I faced a performance that has repeatedly knocked me down for years, and has been a pinnacle point in which I’ve rejected feeling and accepting failure.
After going through this event with this attitude though, and, to me, failing greatly, I came to a point of “acceptance”.
Now I say “acceptance” because for some reason, there’s this vague feeling in me that doesn’t want to accept that I’ve “accepted” this event. I’ve been sitting with myself and really going through my feelings, but for some reason, I feel like I moved on too fast. I haven’t even cried yet, even though I feel like should to fully embody the emotions of the moment.
It’s this weird place where I feel like I’ve “accepted” the raw emotions and it’s discomfort, but like I haven’t done enough. For this reason, I am looking for a book that helps you through accepting acceptance, and I suppose in a way moving forward from acceptance.
Thank you all!
by BoysenberryOk3027