Intense book recommendations

Hi all.
Please hit me with your best book recommendations that either:
1) will rip my soul to pieces
2) have a twist that spins my head out, or;
3) a chilling story that will make me feel sad, uncomfortable or have me wall staring afterwards.

Notes: I don’t have the same emotional side as some do. So some sad recommendations in the past have left me utterly bored and disappointed.
It sounds so strange but I want to suffer, per se.
For reference, my favourite book of all time is A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara. This made me feel the things and I still think of Jude all the time, but I still didn’t shed a tear.

Thanks in advance and sorry in advance for bringing the mood down! I just want a big cry :’)