I have felt completely empty for as long as I can remember and I feel like all my life has been a performance. I’ve been going to a therapist that’s actually helping but, unfortunately part of that is me realizing just how little sense of self I have. I’ve never felt proud of myself, I only feel relief that whenever happened is over. I don’t know how to change, but I desperately want to. I’ve been trying to practice mindfulness, but validating my feelings is really hard because I don’t want to validate misery. I’ve read Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents and I felt really seen by that, and I’m around halfway done with Running on Empty and so far I really like it. Is there any other books that might help me become a whole person? I just want to have any sense of self so bad, you know?
by Calm-Treat-2577