Not use to posting on Reddit so apologies if my formatting is poor.
To be short and blunt I’m 24 and frankly I’ve been miserable for the past two years…it started as an unexplained melancholy and gradually started to gain real reason to be miserable(I’ve never been the pickwickian type). Dog died, cat died, mom got disabled, and my dad died just 10 days ago, and those have been the highlights of my life recently. My dreams and fantasies don’t even make me feel anything anymore, frankly I don’t want to succeed anymore and the only thing that makes me feel worth living is meditating on my suffering.
Basically books that can help push me further into these feelings. This void in my heart is the only thing I have, I’m looking for books that can help make that void bigger…I don’t care if that void swallows me, matter of fact give me something that will help it swallow me.
by Disastrous-Jelly3531