This is gonna be a little too specific.
Two years ago I enlisted in the military (it's a two year mandatory conscription for males in my country). I was 25 and in a pretty bad place mentally. I was an introverted gamer, just getting by doing whatever I could. Didn't travel, didn't go to other places much. So you can imagine what a shock it was suddenly going to boot camp and then being sent away for two years. I was far from home and the nature of my service didn't allow me to come home much and visit my family. I'd be able to see them every 3-4 months at best and I couldn't contact them as much as I liked either, we weren't allowed to have phones and the work there was just exhausting both physically and mentally.
My political views don't align with our country's dictatorship so that meant most of the people around me we're "government goons" who wouldn't bat an eye at beating helpless people or just straight up killing them.
I don't want to say I'm traumatized. I think that's too strong a word for it. But I do have nightmares now that it's all over. I did things I didn't like, because I had to and this whole experience is on my mind all the time. Maybe I need to get some therapy but while look around to find a good therapist… Is there any book (fiction) that could help me heal?
I want a book with strong characters, an exciting story and something to breathe some life back into me.
Thanks and sorry for the huge blocks of text.
by AutumnaticFly