This is going to be oddly specific and perhaps a bit dark but please bear with me.
I went to an all girls' school and when I was 14, a school senior who was 16 at the time (and was one of my best friends or so I thought) emotionally and sexually abused me. This continued till I was around 16, and she was 18. I didn't tell anyone for years, and finally spoke about it in therapy when I was around 25. It was confusing, many bits of that phase are blanked out of my memory, and I also identified it as "abuse" much, much later. When it happened, there are certain bits that I even enjoyed so it surely couldn't have been abuse, right? But there was manipulation, coercion, suicide threats, etc. And overall, I've disassociated myself from it entirely. It just feels like a story, not my story per se.
Anyway, I recently randomly began reading the book 'Dark Vanessa' by Kate Elizabeth Russell, and it forced me to actually think about everything that happened in a calmer and more mature way (I'm 28 now). I'm intrigued by this book and I find myself relating to it in a very odd sense since the book is about a 15 year old girl and her 42 year old male teacher.
This might be a stretch, but does anyone have recommendations for books about same-sex minors where one is being "groomed"? It's taken me several years, but I'm finally in a place where I can deal with the memories of that period, and I'm hoping to find another book that hits closer to home. Thanks in advance!
by MinimumCheesecake