I just watched a video of a huge bodybuilder on steroids, dressed as Dora the explorer. He calls his character Dora the destroyer.
Then a feeling popped in.
Why the fuck does he get to make money dressed like a clown and doing short skits while im here a prisoner of tying my selfworth to my work?!
Besides wanting money, i feel like i need to study and work to get a good job to earn respect from people and get romantic love with a partner.
Why do i feel like i have a sense of superiority over him meanwhile he's living the better financial life and gets to fuckin travel and make money.
It just seems like my automatic thoughts and feelings are outdated and need to get more mature about life.
I really like learning from books by the way, almost in a sacred way.
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