women/girls coming of age story, with themes of guilt and indecision

• there is a summary of bullet points at bottom *
  (it doesn't need to be as strictly following to this post these are mostly ideas)

There are so many good coming of age stories out there, but I've found i don't know many girls ones, at least that are serious.
I'm looking for myself because I'm a late teen and I feel a little lost and I love reading, especially classics, and good writing. descriptive imagery is great.
I'm looking for themes of guilt, mental illness, anxiety, love, indecision, complex family relationships, or even themes of religious/moral guilt.
I think it's good to have nice romances, but I'm also interested in girls who have mixed or uncertain feelings about love.

I feel like there is not a lot of good girls stories of moral decisions that aren't simply either always does good, or remorseless. I think it's good to portray morally apprenhensible characters but I want a girl who struggles and still might not choose the right thing

This does not have to be about teens, it can be young adults or older, or even kids, I just want it the character to discover things about life or struggling with decisions morally, socially, or academically/career related.

I'm not particularly fond of YA novels mostly because of a lot of sensual related stuff but if it's for the plot and specifically about growing up maybe, but I still lean away from it.
I feel like it sounds weird to say a coming of age novel that's not YA, but books like A Separate Peace is considered adult literary fiction not YA usually.

I typically read fiction, but could be interested in creative nonfiction, like a collection of narrative(or just growing up related) essays from the author's life

honestly I would also be willing to hear bout or non binary stories as long as it's good and especially if it touches on these topics

Summary:
• Coming of age story (could be any age just dealing with big struggles/questions of life)
• themes of possibly:
(might only contain one theme, or contain many)
• guilt
• mental illness
• complex family relationships
• complex relationships in general
• indecision
• morality
• gray areas and just general, uncertain moral decisions
• not super into YA usually
• I don't read a lot of romance, but if interesting
• I like reading classics and love good writing with good imagery or just interesting writing styles
• fiction mostly, but creative nonfiction and narrative essays are good too

I am really open though, literally I put a lot just to help come up with ideas and give a good sense of what I'm thinking but if you have an idea that doesn't exactly fit, that's fine