Book to read after a suicide attempt

I tried to kill myself 2 days ago, and stopped in the middle of the attempt after deciding against it. I'm fine, only took half the pills I intended so just ended up a bit dopey for a day and I'm not suicidal at all now.

I am at a point where I'm kind of lost in life. I'm just graduating uni. I hoped to work in the social sector, and found a job there fairly quickly, only to quit it almost immidieatly to take care of a sick family member, who within weeks had to be transferred to more intensive care and no longer needs me, so I pretty much gave up that job for nothing. I'm living in country that's becoming less democratic by the day and commits terrible actions against its neighbours (and I've been fighting against it). I don't see a future living here, but also realize immigrating is very hard. I'm lonely and have lost many friendships lately, and due to my own personality, find it hard making new friends, but I'm working on it.

I'm interested in books about spirituality and religion, but also ficition (and also philosophy, though I have no background in it, so more difficult books might be, well, difficult). I'm very spiritual and used to believe our role in the world is to make it a better place, but find it harder and harder to deal with the fact that no matter how hard we try to do good, others around us just might not return the favor.

Books I read and liked recently are "Zen and the Art of Saving the Planet" by Thich Nhat Hanh, "24 Hours in the Life of a Woman" by Stefan Zweig, "All Quiet on the Western Front" by Erich Mariah Remarque, "Spilt Milk" by Chico Buarque and "Feminism is for Everybody" by Bell Hooks.

Thank you very much and lots of love.