my entire identity has been based on pride/vanity for as long as i can remember. it's turned me into a bitter, judgmental person. but i don't even know who i am or what i have without it anymore. even now it's telling me "you can't let me go, that's admitting defeat. you know you'll never become important so now you wanna pretend it doesn't matter. not being special would be worse than death".
i'd find it myself, but we all know how self-help books can be (even when they're not grifts, a lot of them are either "external problems don't exist actually" or "look at me, i can give tough love and make fun of vain people, i'm such a big man, come here and feel my brain muscles").
see? i can never just need help finding something good, i need to complain about how i only need it because everyone else is incompetent and if they just did it MY way… i can't stay like this any longer. because right now i know i'm an asshole but i don't want to stop.
does anyone know a book that will help me finally let go and move on?
fiction is okay too, maybe a story will help.
by Top_Combination9023