Im looking for a book

I remember going from the youth section in the library and picked up a book i havent found since. It had a purple back. The book was about a girls life in asia (dont remember which country) where she sees her sister getting ready for marriage, but dies – so she is replaced in the marriage. She had a boy she wanted to be with. She struggled during a tea ceremony. She first gave birth to a girl, but asked the midwife/servant to take the child away and tell everybody the child was stillborn. She gave birth to a boy, but he had a club foot so the in laws mocked her for not giving birth to a child right. And then years later, there was a new servant who she ended up hitting with a belt before realising it was her own daughter.

I have tried to search it up online and even with such spesific details i havent found it