Advice on books for healing childhood trauma?

Hey everyone. Throwaway account because this is pretty personal.

I'm 26 and my background is… a lot. When I was 5, I was taken from my family to be raised as the reincarnation of a Tibetan Buddhist lama. After that, I barely saw my parents maybe once every three years. I was raised in a very traditional environment and I had to go through many years of harsh training. and that went on until my late teens.

I'm still studying dharma and it's has helped me change my view on many things. But lately I've been really struggling in my relationships. I can't seem to trust my partners, I get defensive super easily, and honestly? I'm starting to notice the same traits from the people who raised me showing up in myself. The way I react, the walls I put it's them. And I hate it. I want to change.

I'm looking for book recommendations that could help me understand how to heal from this kind of upbringing. Especially stuff around childhood trauma, how it affects trust and relationships, and how to break the cycle. that would be amazing.

Anyone been through something similar or have reads that helped? Would really appreciate any suggestions.

Thanks for reading.