I want messiness!

I want to ready a book similar to “A Love Letter to Whiskey.” I read that book in December, so it’s still pretty fresh in my mind which disables me to reread it. Yet I crave the same messiness and complications that that book and its characters had.

I don’t want the big dramas, but something similar to “it’s simply not happening because it’s not yet the time for it, even if right there in front of you and you can grasp it, but something is holding you back that you can almost physically feel it.”