The original post is soo long I summarise here so I get recs from anyone who can’t be bothered to read the whole thing below:
●Book with mentally ill character who has to go uni/high school, I would like academic pressure to be a topic.●Dysfunctional/abusive family, ●mental illness has to make characters life very hard to live,●bonus points for suicide attempt ●bonus points if character has always had problems ever since they were a child, ●more bonus points if gay
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I’ve been struggling with mental illness since I was 11; I’ve been looking for a book I can really relate to for a while now and for the last two years I’ve really been struggling with keeping up with school and having high standards for myself (I used to be an overachiever even though I was really sick, I don’t know if the work got harder or if I got worse). I’m turning 19 this year, I’ve never had an actual job so I dont know if it feels the same to employed people somehow and I just end up sounding spoiled, but going into school and worrying about homework and everything you have to do while not being able to do the most basic human tasks really is an experience that’s hard to describe, like it feels like you can’t let yourself slip or regress for a minute because time goes so fast and there’s always some deadline or mock coming up and it’s the last year so you need to worry about grades for university so you just have to keep doing things even if you can’t and you’re literally suicidal which is why I wanted a book set in an academic setting with a mentally ill mc.
Alot of books I read which have mental illness in them it just seems like it isn’t affecting their lives too much or the problems are easily solvable by the end, I want something where it affects every facet of their life. I dont mind if the book is trauma porn or if it has a happy ending but I really want to read something relatable and what I have and how I’ve grown up I really do think it’s affected everything in a way.
I’d really like to see some academic pressure and a dysfunctional/ abusive family. Would love to read about a suicide attempt or suicidal ideation or going to a mental hospital.
Bonus points for a queer mc since I’d relate to it more
Even more points if it touches on loneliness, I don’t mind an mc with friends, I love a found family, but feeling like no one would care if you died, or you don’t deserve friends, or that everyone is pretending and no one actually likes you or isolating yourself on purpose (having bpd is such a fun experience) are all very nice to read about, but I love love too so found family something tender and kind of heart wrenching make for good books too
I know I’m getting really specific so even if it doesn’t hit everything but it’s still good and has a mentally ill character I’d like to read it as long as I can see it really affecting the main characters life
by Loose_Dragonfly_6123