I’ve always been a good daughter, been diagnosed with OCD and ADD and certain chronic health conditions that locked me up in a bubble.
Once I got to college, however, I kind of went the other extreme and started drinking, getting caught, passing out in public etc. and have a complicated relationship with a guy who keeps violating my physical boundaries, he pressures me and I give in bc I genuinely love him and hate disappointing him.
I no longer recognize myself. I was once a reserved and well-mannered child who kept to myself, and I found safety in that. I used to stand my ground. I’ve lost all sense of self, I’ve always been very lonely but these feelings exemplify it, I’m drowning in so much shame, guilt and embarassment and feel that there’s no way out from this. I have constant thoughts of ending it all and I’m no longer scared to carry it out. Please suggest a book that would soothe this worry, thank you.
by sheikhspeear