Suggest me self help books

So here’s what I’m looking for.

I struggle with anger and self hatred so deeply it is adversely affecting my relationship with my partner. I have picked up Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth, Awakening your Life Purpose because the last therapy session I went to, they asked me “what is something you can live for?” And despite me recognizing that I love lots of lovely people in my life, I still didn’t have a reason to live. They had to force me to find something. I’ll end that part by saying I don’t wanna die, I just don’t think it makes a big difference if I do so whatever. Anyways, please suggest me books that can help me rewire my brain because if I don’t get help now, it would truly be unfair to the ones I love the most. Please and thank you.

by emehav