So, I’m Christian and was very afraid of doubt, thus, since I was addicted to check my beliefs 24/7, I naturally started reading church history, apologetics, theology and academic biblical studies. However, since I discovered that this ferocious drive to read stems from my doubting OCD, I felt “free and more me” (which is awesome!) and, at the same time, with no interest in any particular topic.
Literature feels useless (read dosto, proust and mann already), because I see it like entertainment and I like to play games. And I want do avoid studying hard topics (university), because in 100 days I’m gonna get full focused in medschool.
I love history! But what would I and others gain from this knowledge? I have a particular interest in chinese, indian and african history, but these seem to be so useless to my future profession and life.
What non-fiction should I spend time reading? I’m so apathetic and everything seem useless.
Should I stop reading? I’ve read just 30 books in my life (currently 21 yo).
Thank you all in advance! 🥰
by OppositeGrand9171
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Maybe you should consider reading fiction. Even if it has no use for you, many authors write a lot of truth about people society and human nature into fictitious stories. Fiction is an application of different philosophies. A very dark but well researched fiction is the “Orphan Masters Son.” It is about a man trying to survive in North Korea and the author did a lot of research about actual historical events to write the book. It feels like a nonfiction. It is definitely sad, but my whole family has read it and it is one of our favorite books. Also, it has won a Pulitzer prize.
Some non-fiction books that are really philosophical/psychological but fast paced reads are Educated by Tara Westover and Born a Crime by Trevor Noah.
A good medical read is “Hot Zone” if you like epidemiology. It is a little sensationalized but a fun thriller read.
I know you are likely extremely time limited but don’t squash your curiosity and interests because they aren’t relevant to what you want to do with your profession. It is okay to have hobbies that aren’t typically productive towards your goals. These hobbies are productive in terms of learning about yourself, personal growth, and learning to balance interests. Happy reading, good luck with your studies.