Looking for a book to help me through the loss of my father

Hi all,

I lost my father earlier this year. The last two years of his life he suffered with severe dementia. Throughout his life he was a very religious jewish man and I, as his daughter, could never really fulfill his wishes on being religious in the way he was. He loved me dearly but was very stubborn. To paint a picture, everyone in my family’s last conversations with him, when he was coherent, was an argument of some sort. I’ve been listening to old voicemails where he’s been begging me to call him back and I can’t now. I know this is a lot of information, but our relationship was very complex and I feel like a lot of the books I’m finding when I search are not reflective in the slightest of all the emotions im dealing with. I prefer fiction or memoir led books. Not interested in self help.

Thank you and please call back your loved ones.