Just stretched and did some hip releasing stretches I visioned myself as all my past selves and cried and started to say I love me and I cried and said I forgive me seeing myself in those vulnerable moments and just being in those positions and just taking it I realized I didn’t pay much attention to that girl/woman I gave all my energy to the experience dwelling on the experience which did nothing for me I abandon myself at the time to make myself feel any better I just consumed every experience instead of do anything nurture her? Try and make her happy? I just embodied fear and sadness and pushed enough to get to the next day but nothing. Where’s the good part for her? I still carry all that pain and hurt with me and forget that there’s more to me than just sorrow what about the soul the flesh the body that is breathing. What have a done for her? I forgive you for hurting you too. I put “that there’s more to me than just sorrow what about the soul I breathe for,the flesh I reside in the that carries those things? What have I done for her? That person living being. I forgive her today for hurting her just as much as my experiences has. I say I want to die / I want to kill myself. I do. I do it everyday I don’t got to do it physically I do it just enough to feel like I really am. EVERYDAY. Dead inside no life. Not living. Stop it! Enough, of killing yourself and spirit in a way you are doing it.Do you feel any better? Now, that you’ve done it? You killed your self making yourself feel like you are not here. How does that feel? Solved anything? No. So stop. It’s pointless, a solution? It’s not fixed just living in your own hell internally now. Bring yourself back to life and make a heaven. I forgive you now LIVE!” #freeing
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