Emotional destruction

I need book recommendations for books that will destroy me. I need something that will shirt me down and just make me think about life and consequences and stuff. My top four that I’ve read so far are
1. Johnny Got His Gun- WWI soldier loses his arms, legs, ability to talk and hear. Story is told through flashbacks and him coping with and figuring out where he is and how to communicate.
2. Solito- memoir of a 8 year old kids journey from El Salvador to California illegally
3. Oppenheimer- self explanatory
4. This is Where it Ends- different perspectives on the same traumatic event that occurs at a high school