I’m only 500 pages in, so no spoilers please. But Jude is literally SO annoying and selfish. It’s making me mad. Everyone around him is putting their entire life on hold to be there for him and he can’t even attempt to get help for his problems. He acts like he cares so much about everyone else, but he sees how bad they are all hurt by his “attempt” and his self harm yet makes absolutely zero effort to solve anything. He refuses to simply try therapy (that they literally set up for him) or even open up to any of his friends/parents at his big age of 40-something. He actually refuses to do anything except sit around and feel sorry for himself.
I get he’s had a hard life but for how many years are you going to make Harold, Willem and Andy (etc) prove over and over again that they care about you, for how long are you going to take advantage of their kindness that you say you don’t deserve while continuing to shut them out then mope about being unloveable?
I feel terrible for Jude but why not try to become the person that is worthy of your friends’ love, if you think you’re too broken to deserve it.
by shira9652