suggest a book for a 17yo who spends way too much time on social media

Struggling with writing college application essays made me realize that I genuinely need to get myself back together. I've been on my devices so much, consuming so much worthless content every day that life feels like a haze. For context, I used to read a lot of Web Novels/Light Novels, but eventually got tired of the common repetitive tropes often done just to be marketable to brainrotting teens like me.

I'm looking for something fresh. I want to start consuming some quality stuff. Anything fiction would be awesome! If you need a starting point for recommendations, here's some quick info on me:

-My dad recently died, and I've been struggling because I don't feel anything at all… until I do, and the world crashes down on me for a few hours. Also it's been kinda hard just trynna be present there for my mom trynna act tough and all that

-I recently broke up with a girl, and i could give so many excuses as to why. but honestly, i do not understand my own feelings at all. Why did i do that? I knew it felt off, but that's it.

-I loooove Hozier's music (if that helps).

-I have a copy of A Tale of Two Cities rn but i genuinely dont feel like reading it (the synopsis didnt feel compelling enough to me sorry)

Suggest anything that'll bring positive growth to who I am! I feel like I've been far too stagnant in the past year. I wanna start to understand myself more and be more in touch with my emotions. I rlly struggle with crying and feeling n stuff. Any recs would be much appreciated.

Thanks!