"I was never an atheist… I was just searching for God in my own way." With these sincere words, Dr. Mostafa Mahmoud begins his unique intellectual journey. His rebellion was never against religion itself, but against ready-made molds—against memorized answers that fail to satisfy a mind that refuses stillness. He spent years among books and experiments, searching for a single thread to hold onto in this mysterious universe. And with every answer, new doors of questions opened before him.
In an era where the word "science" had become the new deity, Mostafa Mahmoud immersed himself in physics, biology, and astronomy. He contemplated the body, the atom, and the galaxy, trying to understand: can existence be explained by coincidence alone? How can such precise order exist without a governing mind? At one point, he thought God might be “energy,” but later realized that this concept falls short of the Creator’s majesty.
He asked: Who created God? A question that seems simple, but it was pivotal in his journey. Over time, he realized the question itself is flawed—it assumes that God is created, while He is the Necessary Existence, without beginning. At this point, he began to distinguish between "half-knowledge," which misleads, and "complete knowledge," which brings a person closer to their Lord.
The soul, the body, and justice… Mostafa Mahmoud sails through questions of the self: is man merely flesh and bone? Or is there something higher—the soul? How do we love, sacrifice, and seek justice and freedom? Where do these values come from? Why do we feel this moral thirst in a world filled with injustice? Then he asks: If God is just, why is there suffering? And he answers: because God gave us freedom, and the fault lies in us, not in Him. This world is not a place of reward, but a place of trial.
In a moment of solitude, he asks himself: Am I honest? And he discovers that honesty with oneself is rare—very rare. Only solitude, and knowledge free from desire, can lead us to the truth. In those stripped-down moments, his heart began to see what eyes cannot.
And he arrives at a remarkable conclusion: that faith is not opposed to science, but rather an extension of it. That religion is not an escape from thinking, but one of its highest peaks. That God did not create us in vain, but so that we may know Him and love Him. And that life—with all its pain and questions—is not the end… but the beginning of a greater journey.
by anisatreddit