I know I need to give up on the idea that anyone would ever love me or have a family with me. I’m probably out of time anyway. I’m just in such denial because I don’t know how to handle being alive if I’ll never experience love or friendship or being a parent or anything like that, but it’s clear that there’s something fundamentally wrong with me that makes me unloveable.
I tried to ask my local community for people to talk to who could help me figure out how to change, but my post got removed. So I guess I just have to come to terms with my reality instead.
by kazookidlit
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Stoner by John Williams.
I would recommend therapy first and foremost! You not even 30 so it seems like some of these thoughts are coming from depression and may not reflect reality. Just my two cents!
How to be alone by Sara Maitland
So sorry to hear that.
I would strongly recommend “Eleanor Oliphant is completely fine”. An amazing novel. I recognized myself, cried buckets, laughed my head off, and decided that no matter what, life is beautiful and worth living 🙏🏻
You need a book about depression. A self help type book. Or a visit with a therapist.
Heft, by Liz Moore. A novel. Isolated people find connection.
I met my husband when I was 28. We’ve been happily married for 36 years.
I second the suggestion for self-improvement. It sounds like you’re getting in your own way.
Your post is so sad, but I don’t believe you are unlovable. Try to find a way to help others and be useful. That will help you matter to others and make you feel that you make a difference in the world. I think that is the road to happiness. You may even meet people and make friends along the way. Please look into mental health services. How about reading A Man Called Ove? It is about a very lonely man and is fun and funny and inspiring.
The Bible.