Im M 27. and i dont know what im depressed or lazy or suffering from anything or but im ruined my life and i dont know i can make change or not.
So to My Story Im M 27 jobless who lives wth single mom and sister. wasted time like knowingly.
im fear for everything. i cant drive bike car , i cant go alone to out side, i cant even have friends to socialize. for past 8 years i wasted most time.
i have health issues adding to this. im very high ambitious but couldnt put into it no matter what.
five years back i graduated after that i stayed two years home. then moved to city for coaching and paid all savings money but didnt went class and just sat in room wasted time. i had fear and guilty yet wasted.
cut back to now huge career gap the job im trying need huge knowledge but here im trying to start or waiting to start for like almost four years. for past 4 years im saying lets do but its keeps on moving.
all my friends humilated me and all my family members humilates me.
and My mom sacrificed many things for me i need to do achieve something but i strucked.
two weeks back my mom said learn driving bike i will pay. the exact moment i fear or lazy or whatever im postponing . this is an example
i cant go aloneout side fear, all my friends are moved upward and earns millions and im happy fpr them
but i cant do for my self.
even kids riding bike yet im struck
i dont know its fear or anything. that feeling struck me all life
even today also im delayed years work just passing my life
even after at my worse now still im same i cant move even after such humilations
i genuinely wanna achieve good and change my life make my momma proud
what im waiting what im fearing for and million questions no answers
im done ith this life
genuinely need your suggestions
i dont expect a book change me but atleast it gives u what im suffering from or a positive step to forward
by straightdrive18