Books (fiction and nonfiction) about self-harm “as a drug”

Another request about something that I'm not certain how to phrase. I'm not looking for something specifically about self-harm as mutilation/cries for help/suicide, but rather specifically as "a way to get high." Things like people who bleed themselves to feel "high" or engage in things like autoerotic asphyxiation to enhance feelings of pleasure.

I'm looking for things that people do without any external substances.

Anything about this from clinical nonfiction to memoir to sci-fi dystopian and anything else.

Thanks!