I've been making art under a certain amount of pressure for the last two years as I turned into a professional artist, launched my online shop, and tried to exhibit and get my name out there as much as I could. But in the process, I got waaay to deep into the perfectionism and the pressure of it all. I feel like anything I make, it has to be good enough to post or sell or further my career some way.
Now I don't know what to paint anymore. Any painting I do try and start turns out shit. I can't hear my voice anymore because I spent so long trying to please everyone else. I can't remember the last time I let myself experiment or made art just for the sake of it. I can't remember the last time I let myself fail and stopped without the consequence of a sleepless night, because I literally cannot stop working until I am satisfied and made something "good". I am so scared that I'll lose all momentum if I stop working now, but I think I've gotten to a point where I have to, if I want to find my "why" again.
I really want to get my inspiration back. I want to learn how to listen to myself and make authentic art. But I don't know how.
Any recommendations would be so appreciated!!
by Noo_no_noo