I realized I did a lot of things sexually that I wasn’t comfortable with right from the beginning of my last relationship. He ended up becoming my husband, and he was highly sexual and like a variety of taboo things. I know deep down I was never comfortable with the things I did but I was desperate to feel loved and didn’t feel worthy. I often tried to keep him from looking elsewhere and would comply with any desire he had. I feel gross and tainted looking back on myself. Any suggestions?
by neonnaturenurse
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A Prayer for Owen Meany
And some therapy…
The Heart’s Invisible Flurries – John Boyne
I’m so sorry, sis. Don’t have a book recommendation but just know that we all have things in our past we’re not proud of but you’re just as beautiful and awesome as before and God loves you.
Tara Brach, Radical Acceptance. You need to forgive yourself And good luck on your journey.
I am not sure I have any books for you, but you are not gross or tainted. You just had some sex you didn’t like. That is it.
Self compassion by Kristin Neff
You might want one on shame too.