So I have been looking but none of other recs satisfy what I want. I’ll just jot it down.
I want to read books where mmc and fmc are both strong willed but no age gaps. Romance and fiction.
Something has to happen DURING the story (not in the past or off page) that changes mmc/ traumatized him drastically. Explicit torture and sa (like jamie fraser) and then him being saved and fmc caring for him.
Most books like this are either fmc centric or mmc traumatized in the past. I want mmc sa’d and being broken IN the story and him to be hurt or in pain when it happens (cry or scream or smthing!) and for this not to be brushed aside like other injuries. That’s all I ask for. Loads of whump. The MCs talk abt it and H cries or hates himself or is disgusted but heals cuz of h. That’s all! And no age gap.
If any past abuses come up that are very recent to the story or their trauma is among the driving plots and fits my whump needs then they are welcome too. Just mention as past or not.
Also, MM preferred during SA but MF also acceptable.
by ID_NorthStar