I want a book that explores this idea of ego and what it is and how it’s this voice in my head living rent free that in not really in charge of or created.

I'm tired of this voice in my head that I've been calling "I" for so long to be what identify as I.

All of these thoughts and worries and judgments. I'm just sick of them all and want them to go away.

I want to be present and realize on a deeper level that isn't me and the me is the entity in the here and now that experiences these thoughts.

It's a paradox bc if I think about the thoughts and me and intellectualize it, that's still more thoughts. So it's like a never ending loop of thoughts. I'm looking for a way to break out of the cycle and my theory is learning about it might help. Let me know if you think that's a bad approach though

Thanks